I know these are better in youtube video form but I really like the message behind this tag. I thought I would do it because I know I have suffered from many labels in my life. The tag is to take the negative labels you've been given by other throughout your life and transform them into something positive.
Fat - I'm healthy and happy. I like to eat what I want and not deprive myself. I'm okay with that.
Spoiled - I have been loved, provided for and safe.
Bitchy - I am self aware and not a doormat.
White as a ghost - I have really clear porcelain skin.
Condescending - I am knowledgeable about a lot, well educated and usually wise
I am not very self confident or secure. I have struggled with this my entire life. As I've gotten older I think my insecurities have just changed rather than going away. No one tells you that you are just as insecure later in life as you were earlier. They always tell you when you get older you get wiser. I definitely find that to be true, with the wisdom comes brand new insecurities. The old ones still surface from time to time, as I can remember those labels so clearly in my mind.
The new one wisdom I have been struggling with for the past few months and even the past few years is the paradox of trying your best. Everyone always tells you that all you can do is try your best. Somehow in saying this these people are assuming your best is good enough. I'm here to tell you that more often than not your best is not good enough. I'm not sure that this is an insecurity but a realisation of your limits. Once you realize your limits, where does that leave you? I don't want to be set up for failure I'm sick of trying my best, putting in the hard work and stress and falling short. All the hard work I do should be put towards something productive, something that leads me on to the future. I'm not saying that anyone should stop dreaming and work for their dreams. I think you should do it. I think just barely making it through to the next round doesn't matter to people who eat, sleep and breathe whatever it is.
I know no one gave me any pennies for my thoughts but I thought I'd just express what I'm feeling at the moment under the guise of a fairly depressing tag.
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