Born This Way TAG

I know these are better in youtube video form but I really like the message behind this tag. I thought I would do it because I know I have suffered from many labels in my life. The tag is to take the negative labels you've been given by other throughout your life and transform them into something positive.


Fat - I'm healthy and happy. I like to eat what I want and not deprive myself. I'm okay with that.

Spoiled - I have been loved, provided for and safe.

Bitchy - I am self aware and not a doormat.

White as a ghost - I have really clear porcelain skin.

Condescending - I am knowledgeable about a lot, well educated and usually wise


I am not very self confident or secure. I have struggled with this my entire life. As I've gotten older I think my insecurities have just changed rather than going away. No one tells you that you are just as insecure later in life as you were earlier. They always tell you when you get older you get wiser. I definitely find that to be true, with the wisdom comes brand new insecurities. The old ones still surface from time to time, as I can remember those labels so clearly in my mind.

The new one wisdom I have been struggling with for the past few months and even the past few years is the paradox of trying your best. Everyone always tells you that all you can do is try your best. Somehow in saying this these people are assuming your best is good enough. I'm here to tell you that more often than not your best is not good enough. I'm not sure that this is an insecurity but a realisation of your limits. Once you realize your limits, where does that leave you? I don't want to be set up for failure  I'm sick of trying my best, putting in the hard work and stress and falling short. All the hard work I do should be put towards something productive, something that leads me on to the future. I'm not saying that anyone should stop dreaming and work for their dreams. I think you should do it. I think just barely making it through to the next round doesn't matter to people who eat, sleep and breathe whatever it is.

I know no one gave me any pennies for my thoughts but I thought I'd just express what I'm feeling at the moment under the guise of a fairly depressing tag.

This Works perfect look skin miracle review

Ever since Lisa Eldridge talked about This Works perfect look skin miracle I've been wanting to try it. Usually my skin is quite good, I get the odd spot here and there (sometimes way more here than there), overall my skin behaves. My problems are my gaunt appearance and my ridiculous under eye bags.

Lets be honest here, I hate foundation. Foundation is just gross to me. I have oily skin already so to put a layer slimy junk on my face does not appeal to me. I'm not trying to brag (I have skin issues too) but my skin does not need a slimy mask. I'm not ashamed of my freckles, my bags aren't too embarrassing, and the blotches of redness come and go. I have skin, I like having skin, I don't feel the need to have a mask. It's okay to have skin, no one so far has pointed and laughed when I've skipped foundation.

With all that being said, I do like to look healthy. I often am a stressed out wreck who rarely sees sunlight, so having a little help is welcomed. I've been looking for something that gives my skin a boost. I want it to feel like nothing, give me a little color and make me look a little more coherent. I really liked the idea of this product, I'm not expecting it to be its name, but I like the slight tanning and toning with minimal slim concept. The scariest thing about this product is not just the price. Lets talk price for a minute. The 28£ price tag for 30ml of product is sort of ridiculous. I know there are more ridiculous price tags out there but lets be serious, for a normal human being this is a little insane. Needless to say it took a lot of convincing (by myself to myself) that I needed this product (and a 25% discount on ASOS).

As I was saying, the scariest thing about this product is the color. Scary and disgusting, the color of the product that comes out is baby poo brown. I kid you not. I did gather this from Lisa Eldridge's video but witnessing it in the flesh is a totally different can of worms. The coverage is basically zero, you have to prepared for that. This is not going to hide anything. If you are concerned about hiding things than this is either not for you, or you will have to invest in a good concealer (okay maybe not invest as there are some good cheap ones on the market). The thing that I do really like about this product is that it evens your skin tone out a bit and it gives you a bit of color. What I have noticed most in my makeup and hair journey there is nothing better than to have a little color to your skin. I am not promoting going out and frying in the sun, don't do that. A product like this, or a little bit of fake tan that is specifically for your face can really help. You look healthier and you can pull off so much less makeup if you have a little color to your face.

I really like the container it comes in. It's a tube but it has a really nice pump instead of a squeeze top. I think when you are trying to get the last drop out you could squeeze and pump to make sure you get it all.

Also, the smell is a little funky. I would not go so far as to say it's bad, it's just funky. You can't smell it once it's on and rubbed in, just when you pump some out it smells a bit strange.

My face routine at the moment is a little bit of Porefessional by Benefit over pronounced pores with this over the top all over my face. I am using the Garnier Tinted roller ball in the lightest shade for under eye circles. I do have spots that I am trying to cover with a little foundation (at the moment is Revlon PhotoReady but I have some Dior Nude Skin and ELF Tinted Moisturizer). My go to concealer for everything used to be the Collection 2000 Lasting Perfection but I've been trying to be minimal and I've noticed that it cakes and when you sweat or get oily it just cracks. I'm not impressed by that. I'm sure for non-oily skin (more like non-grease-ball skin) it's much better as it's most people's holy grail concealer.

At the moment I'm not too far into the product so I can't give any definitive answer on whether I would repurchase. I think this can be really good on the days that you feel confident. On days when you have more spots and discoloration I think you'll have to go with something a bit heavier. I still think that most of the time, if you have good skin, you can get away with this and some concealer. I feel like there are not that many products for people with good skin. I find it so strange to watch the youtube gurus smearing a ton of makeup on there almost perfect skin. I think this is probably more of a shopaholic and self conscious problem than anything else. If you can get away with some color and a little concealer why not. It's so uncomfortable to not be able to rest your head on your partners shoulder and not let your skin breathe. I'm not saying I feel really comfortable in my skin but I'm willing to give it a try in my better areas. I think if you have good skin and can try this product out, you should. Embrace your beauty but not necessarily your ghost like complexion. 

Perfect Look Skin Miracle
Garnier Roller Ball Tinted Under Eye concealer
Mac Summer Haze Eyeshadow
Benefit They're Real Mascara
Revlon Lip Butter in Sugar Frosting

(I'm sorry the pictures are so washed out, I swear I look much less like a ghost then usual which is really quite sad.)